Chapter Eight

Note: This chapter isn't my usual chapter-format-thing.  It's more of a songfic, you could say, with the lyrics "My Immortal" by Evanescence.  'Kay?  I don't own the song.

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone...

Sparrow didn't know when the pack returned that night, because he was in a deep sleep, tired from the day's harsh events.  He couldn't believe that the one who had raised him was dead.  The event had shaken him quite a lot, and he didn't want to see anyone either at the moment.  He was hungry, but too weak to stand.  If he tried to, he would most likely slip and fall because of the shock from Dawn's death.
For a moment, he hoped that he had been dreaming, and that Dawn was still alive.  Just to make sure, he slowly and shakily walked out of his den and made his way to hers.

It was empty.  He walked inside, and shuddered.  It hadn't been a dream.  It was completely real.  Dawn was dead, and there was nothing he could do about it.
She had stood up for him several times in the past, and she was the reason that he was still alive.  Sparrow didn't know how he was going to survive without her - it would be nearly impossible.

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase...

Sighing and shaking his head, he returned to his den.  He knew that if he stayed in there much longer, he would begin to hear her voice and see her face.  There was nothing to do but mourn her death anyway, such as the pack was doing.

Except for Leader.  He just seemed... less snappish than usual.  He sat at the top of the cliff from the beginning of the day until the end, staring down at the other wolves and watching them.

Watching the pups.  Picking out his next victim.

Sparrow shook the thought out of his head and looked up at Leader.  He wasn't looking at the pups at all - he was mostly looking at Sparrow.  

Avoiding his gaze, Sparrow sat down in his den and sighed.  

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

And now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me...

He couldn't eat anymore.  He couldn't sleep.  For the next few days, he left his den only once or twice.  When food was brought to him by Sapphire or Snowflake, he took it but just let it sit there in front of him.  He ignored all hushed words from the pack when he knew that they were speaking of him.

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase... 

Whenever the sun slowly began to set, he would sometimes leave the cave and howl at the top of the cliff once Leader made his way back to his den.  Sapphire and Snowflake sometimes joined him, but not very often.  He was tired of being alone all the time, but in some ways, he wanted it.

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along...

He was alone.  And he finally realized, he had always been. 

The End

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