LadylikeMature

"What the fuck is ladylike
It's ladylike to do
What the fuck they like
Just like you
Yeah just like you
Look out there, here comes another one
What the fuck is ladylike
It's ladylike to do
What the fuck they like
Just like you
Yeah just like you
Look out man, here comes another one." - "Ladylike" chorus, Storm Large

I'm genderqueer. That can mean a lot of things, but for me it means that while I identify with womanhood in that I was born female and most of the world perceives me as female, and I love women, my brain, or my mind, or my soul, just isn't feminine.

It's not really masculine, either.

I used to think I wanted to be a boy, but that was because I loved women, and so many women loved men.

When I got older I realized that if I became or was born male, people would be upset if I ever decided to wear a dress (I usually don't, but sometimes I do on a whim or in formal situations) and cook, and hang out with kids... I would creep them out, and my life wouldn't really be any better; I mean, no chick wants a guy that soft.

I heard about these frogs in Africa that could change sex once. I wished I could do that, except at will, back and forth. I really wished the Polyjuice potion in Harry Potter was real, because it would solve all my problems. But alas, I never got an Owl from Hogwarts.

Puberty was a nightmare for me. I knew that girls become women, and that it might happen to me, but getting boobs and a period made me feel so STUCK with this being female thing.

And I didn't just get boobs. I got huge boobs before most other girls my age. Most of the other girls loathed me for being stared at by boys. I didn't even want boys to be staring at me! I just wanted the girls to notice me and think I was pretty.

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