Being More

“Hello?” Forgetting to check my caller id.
“You look very beautiful today.”
“Who is this?” Before remembering that I have caller id. I stopped what I was doing and sat at the bench the bags that I was carrying were starting to get heavy.
“I see that you really like to go shopping. Those bags must be getting heavy for you to have to stop when there are so many sales going on. You really like to read that much?”
I began to answer the questions before realizing that there is no way that I would be at the mall on a regular day. I wasn’t a big shopper. “How did you know that I have a lot of bag or that I’m at the mall shopping, Tai?”
“I see that you had to check to see who you were talking too on the phone. I could tell you a lot of things; I know you have a big Borders bag and that you are sitting in front of a bed store.”
I looked around to see that I really was sitting in front of a bed store. I blow a kiss out in to the open.
“I hope that kiss was for me.”
“Where are you?” As I began to look around.

“You look so cute when you have a question and you show it in your face.”
“Well since you like to play games, let’s play.” I got up and walked into the Bath and Body Works out to the other side. “Now let’s see where you would be hiding.” I began to walk to the Kohl’s hall. “Now let’s see how good you are at this. I’ve just passed the upstairs Annie Anne’s and I’m going into a restaurant.” I walked up to the waiter and told him a table for two and that the gentleman that would joining me in a few minutes. “The gentleman will look lost and if you could please show him to the table that would be great.” A few minutes later, I saw him come into the restaurant and the waiter did as I said. “This way sir.”
“No I’m not here for a table; I’m looking for someone.”
“This way sir,” is all the waiter said to Tai and he followed still looking around.
“Here we are sir.”

 

With the menu still in front of my face, “did you find who you are looking for yet?”
“I just found her.”
“Tai what are you doing here? Not that I’m not glad to see you it’s just that you live and work in Philly and well this isn’t Philly.”
“I wanted to see you and talk to you about something.”
“Well you could have just picked up the phone to ask your question.”
“No it had to be done in person. Well we have been talking for some time now and… Well I just want to know if there could be more to us then just talking?”
All I could do was sit there in shock and smile. I looked at him thinking to myself that I have wanted this for some time but I didn’t know if or how this would work. With him reading my facial expressions, he took my hand.
“We can make this work trust me; I’m not going to hurt you. Let’s go somewhere and talk about this before you make up your mind.”
We paid the check, got up, and left. He directed me to the Brunswick Hotel. His room was set up with flowers and strawberries waiting in the room.

 

“Did you plan all this out for me?”
He led me into the room and sat me across from the bed. Not wanting to make me feel uncomfortable. “Well I did have some help but most of the things that I needed to know I asked you about when we were talking, especially over the past few weeks. I want to be that man that you talked about, the one that helps you with your frustrations, and the one that takes the time to please you. Something happened to me when we were talking; I realized that I wanted to get to know you more.”
“But I’m not your type and you know that. You are here for the same things as the other ones were.”
“Lin, how would you know what my type is? I haven’t been with anyone in a long time and you know that. And if you’re taking bout wanting to be with you just for your v card u knows that, I’m not after that; if I wanted sex I would get it. I know that your luck with guys hasn’t been that great but I’m different. I want to try and show you what I see in you; hoping that one day that you could love me.”

 

I began to cry as he told all of this to me. “I know that I have my problems and people have called me cold hearted but this is how I protect myself and after all of this time I just don’t know when the real thing is coming or if it is just another fool that coming around. I’m sorry Tai but I’m going to need time before I can just jump into this with you. I don’t want to lose the friendship that we have. If you would have asked me last year I would have said yes and part of me wants to say yes now but I have just been hurt too much lately to be able to trust you in that way.” I walked up to him grazed his cheek with my hand, kissed him and left the room. As I waited for elevator, he came out the room after me.
“Lin, I will wait for as long as it takes. You don’t have to make your decision right now. But can you just come back to the room and just chill with me? I’m here for four days and I don’t know anyone here but you. We can just chill as friends and watch a movie or something?”

With things remaining, the same I decide to go and visit him before he found out the news from someone else. He picked me up from the train station. “How was your trip,” Tai asked.
“It was good I took and nap on the way here.” We headed back to his house. He had set up his room for me. “Where are you going to sleep if I’m in your bed?” He pointed into the other room. That night he cooked for me and we just chilled in the house for the night. We left to get some ice cream for dessert and picked up a movie for the night. While the movie was playing, he started to yawn; remembering that he had worked today, I got up and turned the dvd off. “Lets get some rest I know you worked today.” He smile and went to get some things for him to be able to go to sleep. “How bout I sleep in the other room; I don’t want to kick you out of your bed.”
“I’ll be fine.”
“Then how bout we share the bed. I know that you are still working 2 jobs.” He looked at me; thought about it.
“If it will help you sleep better then sure.”

 

I laid with my back to him. He moved closer and put his arm around me.
“Sorry it’s just habit,” and he started to move back to the other side.
“No, you don’t have to let go.” We fell asleep together. In the morning, he was up cooking breakfast. He had planned to show me around Philly for the day. Later that night we went out to eat. He kept looking at me still wondering why I said that I had to come down to see him. “Don’t worry I’ll tell you when we get back to the house.” We finished eating and headed back to the house. I went to take a shower while he waited for me in the bedroom.

 

“Tai, are you ready to find out why I came?” He got up, walked into the living room, and sat next to me on the couch. “I wanted to tell you that you need to move on and not to wait for me anymore. I’m leaving the country and I don’t know when I’m coming back.”
“Where are you going? And if I want to wait I’ll wait.”
“I’m going to London to live and work for bit. I don’t want you miss out on something that can be great.” I got up, kissed him on the cheek, headed to the room, and went to bed. As I walked away he said, “We could be great.” I woke up the morning to find him sleeping on the couch. “Good- bye Tai.” I called a cab and left for home.

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