I had a phone call from Kate earlier! She says they’ve news of Elle … but can’t tell me the details. However, I have to listen out for the phone tomorrow. They’re all being very mysterious - that was always what Kate was like. I don’t like it. I wish they’d just tell me, for goodness sake!
Can it be true? Can they have found news of Elle in Holland? Oh my goodness. I’ve only just realised, and it’s staring me in the face. Holland. Amsterdam. Elle. Oh my goodness. It can’t have happened how I think it’s happened, can it? She can’t be doing what I think she’s doing, can she?
My daughter! I don’t want to believe it … don’t want to understand. I can’t bear it if it’s true. I don’t think I’ll be able to live through it.