Dinner wasn’t the best thing that had happened to me. As everyone had their discussion, I barely contributed to it and instead ate my food in complete silence. My mom occasionally glanced at me to check if I was alright and if I was eating my food instead of sneaking into some hidden pocket and disposing of it later. She thought that I’d stopped eating after that day as it was “normal teenage behavior” from shock or something. But I was eating alright and I was healthy. Matt wouldn’t have wanted me to change my eating habits because of him.
“Lillian, how’s school been going for you?”
I looked up at Diana’s smiling face, whose question had snapped me out of my thoughts.
“School’s going alright. Everything’s fine.”
She nodded at me and continued talking with the others, knowing that I wasn’t going to say anything furthermore. Dinner passed by slowly and when it finished, I helped clear up. Amy tugged at my hand when we were done and said, “Come on! Let’s go!”
After saying goodbye to our parents, we walked over to a nearby theater where they were putting a few films.
“What do you want to watch?” She asked me as we looked at our options. They were showing the Titanic and an animation film.
“Whatever you’re okay with.”
Big mistake, I should have said animation. Because in the end, I found myself watching the Titanic which only made me think of Matt even more especially because of the end. Was I going to be just like Kate Winslet in the movie; grow old with no other guy because my true love had passed away? Memories of that day came and played in my head over and over again as the movie continued and I felt like I was going to cry any second when the movie finally finished.
“Great. Let’s go home now!”
As we walked back to her house, we didn’t talk at all. There was complete silence as our shoes paced on the cement sidewalks. I find it uncomfortable as I saw Amy sneak glances at me to see how I was doing. It’s as if she knew that I wanted to bawl over any second. Just when I felt like the worst could happen here, we got to the front yard. Our parents were already out in front, talking and my mom waved over at us.
“Well it’s been a great night, Clarence,” I heard Mr. Anderson say.
“Indeed, Joseph. And the girls had a good time too, I’m sure,” my mom replied, winking over at us.
I put on a fake smile as Amy told them about the movie and as I remained silent. Finally, my mom said, “Well, it’s getting late. We should get going.”
“Alright Claire. Take care, see you next week,” Diana said, hugging my mom goodbye and then hugging me too.
Mom and I made our way to the car, and as she started down the street, I waved goodbye to Amy.
“So seems like you had a good time with Amy, Lillian.”
“Yes I did mom. Everything went perfect.”
Oh, how I wished that bit could be true.