All I see is darkness after a beautiful sunshine,
All I feel is drowning after a cool, soothing swim,
And sometimes, I fall into a deep crevice after climbing to the top.
Because when the light and the joy is sucked out,
The horror and darkness is unleashed.
And when the dream ends, the nightmare begins.
It’s always the same each day,
Waking up and assuring myself it’ll be a nice day
But who am I fooling.
Deep inside I always know that
'Twill be the same as yesterday
Someone said that every day’s different
Take my word, he ought to be shot
There are monsters lurking inside of me
Those only come out when I’m most vulnerable
I scream, I cry, but they are not the ones to leave,
My senses are.
I see the mirror every morning and I realize
I’ll probably never change back.
I’m permanently disfigured, forever gone
There are voices inside my head, whispering, and murmuring
It’s like I’m trapped in my own mind.
It’s not a place anyone wants to be in.
No one even suspects that I’m gone
And that’s what hurts the most.
I laugh, I smile, and I chat,
But it kills me everyday that no one sees that inside,
I’m as good as dead.
No hell, this is worse than death.
This is zombie land.