I haven't written much of anything in the past couple of years. Life came and bumped my creative self onto the backburner. The last few weeks I have been trying to "refind" myself by joining an art club, going to ballroom dance lessons and by going to art and writing sites. I stumbled upon Protagonize and found myself thinking that "now there is a site I haven't been to in awhile". When I checked it out I discovered that it was much longer than just awhile, it had been a couple of years since I spent time reading and writing here. Well, I am here now and I hope I can get back into writing once again.
I am finding that the flow of my words isn't as smooth as it had been and I see I have alot of work ahead of me. I guess before anything else, I have to build confidence in myself, that yes I can do this. I did it once and I can do this again. Really, when I stop and think about it, the last real thing I wrote was a eulogy for my Mother-in-law's funeral 2 and a half years ago. Perhaps that is why my writing came to a halt. Not only did my grief pull me down, but I had to face the reality of a Father-in-law who was grieving so much that he threw himself fully into our lives. Even after 2 1/2 years he calls multiple times a day, invites himself over to dinner, etc. He won't move on with his life and I guess that is making it difficult for my entire family to move on with theirs.
Life can get overwhelming at times, but it is time like these that I need to hold onto who and what I am. I need a real change in my life, to reclaim a part of me that started to drift away. So, I am going to take a chance and claim "I have returned"!