who am i

I never wanted to fit in
follow the crowd
or be the same
I wanted to stand out
and be myself
be unafraid to be me.

But sometimes when I look
I see friendships love and family
and I think
Would I have that if I were different.
I see people hand in hand
linked arms same steps small laughs
and I wonder
Would I have that were I not me.

Headphones in book out
hurt doesnt matter if I'm not seen
Hood up head down
invisible to the people around
If they see the smile on my face
they wont see the frown in my eyes
if they hear the laughter in my tone
they wont hear its flat to the sound.

I never wanted to fit in
I wanted to be bright
I wanted to be me
but life wears me down
makes me stumble to the ground
and makes me wonder what the use is
when no one needs me around.

I close my fist around empty air
and wish someone else's hand was there
to steady me as I walk
someone there to make me smile make me talk
I wish I had someone to believe
in the person I am the person I could be
but all I have is a circle of silence
that follows my shadow wherever I go.

Music up, world locked out
whispers can't hurt if I can't hear
Hair tied up, hidden from view
stares cant burn if I cant see
If they see the smile on my face
they wont see the frown in my eyes
if they hear the laughter in my tone
they wont hear its flat to the sound.

I never wanted to fit in
or to follow the crowd
but sometimes I see
why others do
because different isn't acceptable
because different's just too wrong.

The End

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