i was fine until today.
i was fine 'til that blasted woman
came charging in
and disgraced my entire family.
i was fine until then...
i was okay until i read it,
okay being a generous word.
i read the passages
and took in what i wasn't here for
and all i could do was tremble...
i shut my eyes to hide the pain
and crawled to the safety
of my lofty space,
trying to hide
all the pain i was showing...
i curled up in the darkest corner
and tried to hold myself together,
but I couldn't stop shaking.
i remember the screaming
at myself from me
i slapped my spasmodic corpse
trying to spare what was left of me...
i guess it didn't work now did it?