I was always afraid of falling in love and growing up, and all that nonsense and now it's too late.
I don't want to be 14, I don't want to grow up and be responsible and have to move out and get a job.
I never ever even wanted to fall in love, but it happened.
I've always been afraid of changing, and I just miss back when I was 5 and I was so carefree and didn't have to worry about a thing.
I had a mommy and daddy to come into my room together every night and tuck me into bed and kiss me goodnight, and they got me dressed in the morning and fed me breakfast and lunch and dinner.
Then I could go outside and play with my barbies and my imaginary friends without the slightest problem.
The whole world was my backyard wide and my dog was my best friend.
Everything is different now.
I have to worry about school, and cadets and all sorts of drama.
Mom and dad are divorced, and my mom doesn't tuck me into bed.
They don't wake me up in the morning or get me ready for school, I do that all myself
Most of the time I make my own breakfast and lunch.
Now I go outside and I have to worry about making sure I'm home on time and that I don't go too far.
The world is the biggest and scariest place I've ever known, and I don't even have a dog.
We're stuck in a little duplex instead of the pretty house with the big backyard and picket fence.
I just miss the way things were when I was 5.
Everything is so much harder now.