So you enjoy the look on my face?
After all I’ve done?
After what you did to me without realization?
You don’t know how much I hurt by the simplest things you don’t express
Are you not proud to have me as a beautiful partner?
You don’t want to show off your respected gift in public?
You’re unaware of what this is becoming and it scares me
What would you do if I told you; you make me to hurt myself when you hurt me?
What would you do if I gave you the number of nicks grazing my arm?
What would you do if I left? But I cared what happened?
What would you do if I stayed? But I didn’t care what happened?
Driven into doubtfulness, questionable faith
Even when I am right beside you
I’m empty, alone, and cold
I try to talk to you about what hurts me
But I’m going nowhere
I can’t let myself get excited then get disappointed again
It’s happened so many times I don’t even ask now
But of course you don’t know
That’s because you won’t talk!
Do you not want me to know what you’re thinking?
What your day was like? How your family is doing?
Do you not trust me?
I’m flawed, I know
I’ve made bad decisions
But don’t think of me as a bad person
Why won’t you talk to me?
I want to hear all the good and bad things from you!
Not anyone else!
I don’t want to be carried on like this again
I refuse to put myself through that much pain again
But I don’t want to let go
I guess I just have a sliver left of hope
For you to realize you hurt me
By talking to her rather than me
How you smile more around her
How you are more enthusiastic to even converse with her
It puts me at second best
I cry when I am convinced by my own eyes I am not accepted
I don’t want to hurt this way every single day
What would you do if I asked:
“I love you; do you think we could last forever?”
What would you do?