An hour, a minute
Just a second will do
Lift your eyes, look at me
See the person I’ve turned into
Wrapped in sorrow, buried with old love
A wall I can’t get through
Years have gone, a man cocooned
Surrender your shield because I need you
I never noticed how these silences stretched
Your uncomfortable stance and awkward face
Daddy dear, these “bonding” fishing trips
Are only signs of losses you can’t replace
Giving me sound foundations
Your reasons for these cold green sheets
Heartless bills for my future
An excuse for you to hide beneath
The costly new guitar in the corner,
Will avert my mind, you thought,
The million riches surrounding me,
But mother dear, happiness can’t be bought
You know what I fear most of?
No, not the horror movies’ tombs
It’s the emptiness, the barriers
The lost feelings in this place I call ‘home’
Was it my fault? Was it me?
Was it what I did those years long ago?
Was it because of me that she died?
Eyes barely opened before they closed?
We are perfect, in their unknowing eyes
We are the model family
Successful father, beautiful mother
And then the oddity: broken-hearted me