it sucks being genderfluid and looking so DAMN FEMININE
my hair goes past my collarbones,
a golden-brown color tinged with red
and my hipbones scream,
pay attention to me!
as my wait cinches in tight,
it gives me an hourglass figure.
my chest's substantial,
i have the body of a woman.
i hate it.
do you know how hard it is to hide that?
how difficult it it to hide your hair under a hat?
how trying it is to hide your chest?
because sure, sometimes i'm thankful
for it as i slip on a dress but sometimes i try to find
a pair of shorts that aren't feminine and i can't.
and i want to say that i want my hair short
and i cannot get the words out.
sometimes i hate this.
sometimes i hate that my mind
will not decide on a gender,
while my body is steadfast
in trying to define me as a girl.