I think I understand now.
How this all will work out and how I can move on.
I keep looking back, wanting the past to be my present.
All the while hurting those I love, and pushing away the help.
If I keep this up, my present will soon become my past.
I'll wish for my present.
I'll wish for my friends.
I'll wish for my family.
The people I have right now with me.
Its worthless so wish for the past.
Its worthless to wish for those who are long gone.
So that'll be my pull.
I will heal.
Not only because its good for me, but for the sake of the people I love.
I know it won't be easy.
I know I'll still feel confused, pained, and angry.
But I think its worth it.