Right now I just am.
Wasting my precious life away.
I love those who don't love me the same.
I live while wanting to die.
I want to move on but I don't know how.
I regret the times I've missed.
I feel pain for the people I have lost.
I harm those I love and harm myself.
I cry for the pain I can't understand.
I hide those emotions everyone scorns.
I pretend I am just fine.
I lie that I'm doing ok.
I don't understand.
Isn't life so much more than this?
This endless cycle of pain?
Why can't I seem to find the end?
Is there even an end?