selfish yearnings.Mature

I want to love without hurting anybody.

I want to always say and do the right things.

I want to be perfect.

I want to cry whenever I want to.

I want to be able to completely change my emotions without a fight.

I just want to go home.

I want to go home so badly.

I want to never have existed.

I want to disappear and cause no pain to those I love.

This pain is too much.

The heartache is agonizing.

I want to let it all go, and release the internal madness inside.

I want to be able to speak my mind without this feeling of brokeness.

I want to know I am of some worth.

I want to believe I am loved.

I want to cry and have no guilt.

I want to know what to do.

I want to simplicity.

I want to hurt myself and not tell anybody.

I want to sing and dance with the innocence I used to have. 

I want to be emotionless.

Oh, when will these selfish yearnings inside me end?