Growing up I was a butterfly
All ways flying from one boy
To the next.
It started out
With my next door neighbors son
Who hit me across the head
With his Darth Mull's Light-saber.
He dad did movies
And he wanted to do that too
He was my first crush
Until I met Derek.
Derek was strange and we fought
Just like a married couple.
That was in second grade
When I was clueless
But then came third and fourth
And for that first time
It was the same guy.
Kolton R. with his light brown hair
and his bosting of knowing how to skate.
My crush with him
Lasted until half of fourth grade.
That's when I thought that boys where not worth
My time, since they only hurt, and made fun of you.
I managed to have only small crushes from then on.
The whole time, it was always with the jocks.
That is until, I meet Him.
Jr. High wasn't a great time.
I was lost in the world
And at times I thought of giving up, and letting myself just jump.
But on Christmas break
I talked to Him and he wanted to know
What was wrong with me.
I spilled my soul and he told me
That he would be sad
If I made that jump.
Ever since then,
When I feel like jumping
I just remember him.
And I can't do it.
But now, we're both sixteen
Talking about getting married
and having a family.
But we can't let our parents know
That we are together and will be forever.
He has his family problems
And I have very protectful parents.
But that doesn't stop us
From holding each other
And giving stolen kisses in the dark.