Second to Now

Growing up I was a butterfly

All ways flying from one boy

To the next.

It started out

With my next door neighbors son

Who hit me across the head

With his Darth Mull's Light-saber.

He dad did movies

And he wanted to do that too

He was my first crush

Until I met Derek.

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Derek was strange and we fought

Just like a married couple.

That was in second grade

When I was clueless

But then came third and fourth

And for that first time

It was the same guy.

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Kolton R. with his light brown hair

and his bosting of knowing how to skate.

My crush with him

Lasted until half of fourth grade.

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That's when I thought that boys where not worth

My time, since they only hurt, and made fun of you.

I managed to have only small crushes from then on.

The whole time, it was always with the jocks.

That is until, I meet Him.

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Jr. High wasn't a great time.

I was lost in the world

And at times I thought of giving up, and letting myself just jump.

But on Christmas break

I talked to Him and he wanted to know

What was wrong with me.

I spilled my soul and he told me

That he would be sad

If I made that jump.

Ever since then,

When I feel like jumping

I just remember him. 

And I can't do it.

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But now, we're both sixteen

Talking about getting married

and having a family.

But we can't let our parents know

That we are together and will be forever.

He has his family problems

And I have very protectful parents.

But that doesn't stop us

From holding each other

And giving stolen kisses in the dark.