One of my best friends brought great happiness into my life and helped me discover myself. This is about our last night we spent together.
I wasn't expecting to hear from you that night.
I hadn't heard from you in a few months.
And so when I saw your name on my caller Id I thought maybe something was wrong.
I answered and I heard you say "can I see you?"
I was already in bed and it was late but you promised to have me back by 2 am.
I got dressed and climbed out my window and waited.
I saw your car pull up, and you motioned for me to come on.
I smiled. I missed you so much and here you were.
I opened the door and saw you smiling back at me.
That smile could cure cancer.
That smile made me forget everything for the time being.
"where is it we're going?"
We drove and drove.
With the music loud and him singing,
It was as if things never changed.
But things were different.
But it didn't hurt to pretend things were okay. So I did.
Finally we stopped.
We were at this park on the other side of town.
"are you ready?"
I was ready for anything.
We got out and felt the familiar air of summer nights.
I wouldn't ever forget this.
he went to the back, and pulled out 2 longboards.
"I'm going to teach you."
We found a low hill next to the pond in the center of the park.
I got on and he held my hand and guided me down the hill.
the wind began to pick up and made me as though I was flying.
Weird how a board with little wheels could make you feel so free.
Or this feeling came from you.
This feeling of freedom and of assurance.
I never wanted to go home.
I wanted to stay here riding longboards all summer long.
You were the best thing that had ever happened to me
and I never wanted to go back.
That was the last time I saw you.
That was almost a year ago.
I wish you had never left.
I wish you were still here.
Because its times like this when I need you.
When I need you to hold my hand and guide me.
To remind me that things always get better.
Why did you have to go?
This isn't fair and I wish I didn't still hurt.
I wish I would have thanked you for everything you did for me.
You made me so different.
You helped me find myself instead of forcing me to hide it.
Im so sorry.
I wish I could have done better.
-For E. R.