That which is too hard to say, but so easy to feel
This feeling- so strong, unrelenting, and causing so much anguish,
Strife, longing, doubt,
Eluminatingly ot fills my soul…
Its like an anxiety attack without the outer symptoms-
Cant catch my breath,
Unbearable heatach –
It’s the errie feeling in my stomache, heart, soul, and mind.
Cant shake it off, nor shut it out.
Its there, always, unceacingly- - a cloud over my head.
Im bound, ressless, cant think straight…
Tousing and turning- theres no release.
Im screaming on the inside- but quiet on the out.
Standing in the crowd, going through the motions-
I just want…
A peaceful freedom- - -
From this darkness that is cadging me…
The chanins binding me- the thoughts cutting and the feeeling that is killing
---my soul, deluting my mind- - -
Destroying my life…..