There are things I've wanted to say
They have gathered dust in my frozen mind
Have been locked up, all into one day
One memory, That each time is declined.
As clocks strike on the time to begin
To air out these thoughts like old tattered clothes
I let the memories and feelings boil under my skin
Reawaken, that hurt I disposed.
I want you to see inside my head
How feeling still sits under each thought
I want you to feel how my hearts dead
How the beat stutters, fails, starts then is caught.
I want to tell you, I've told a lie every single day
Since when the leaves tumbled to fall last year
How I start in the morning with "It's fine, I'm OK"
And how I end each night with "At least I'm still here"
You know something, you never held my hand
when we were walking together down the street
Each naive kiss had to be infinitely planned
And even then you still managed to make me fall at your feet
Because you wanted the person I was
The little girl who was kind in my head
No one had noticed her before because
She had a habit of hiding underneath the bed
You always wanted me to be by your side
Even when I was Ill or upset
Not one time, had I ever lied
Until I said that you would be easy to forget
I've lost count of all those who've failed
To fill your all star black, size ten trainer
Each attempt I've thrown and derailed
In love, I can act, I can be an entertainer
But theres no air in my lungs
When I see you happy without me
Everyone is speaking in tongues
When they say you've moved on can't they see.
I'd be like new clean air,
Filling your hopes like only teenagers can
Into your intentions and words I'd never cold stare
In my head It's this perfect simple plan....
We'd get it right this time
I'm different now.....I swear.....
Please realise while were still in our prime
Because my hopes begun to wear...
I've waited a year for your crooked grin
And I've waited a year to finally hold your hand
I've waited a year to ask where your heads been
And I've waited a year to be able to stand
A year I've waited to let you know....
that I waited all this time......for you to...
See the signs of this wait I'd never willingly show...
Because Darling, I Still Love You.