Evolving Into MiseryMature

Tortured by endless riddles,

Mimicked by traitors.

Always stabbed in the back.

The pain brings delight.

 

Feed me agony,

Feed me sadness,

Let me face your trials.

I want to feel,

I want to know,

This greater knowledge I’ve been told.

 

Pushed by former allies,

The forces change sides.

Gravity takes my being

And breaks my bones.

 

Give me assurance,

Give me hope,

My fragile mind is failing.

I must create,

I must show,

I am not so easily deceived.

 

Now I become crystallized.

Trapped in this shell.

Displaying beauty

While hiding the mire.

 

As oblivion beckons to me,

I fall down on my knees.

Rumors persist I am dead,

My eyes close and I tire.

 

Bearing a cold shoulder

Has left me freezing.

The accident long ago

Left me with enemies.

 

Beat me now,

Strike me now,

So long as you stop taunting.

I want to be,

I have to be,

The person that I am.

 

Brush the dust away,

And I believe I am older.

This character is outdated.

Change is the answer.

 

I cannot be,

I will not be,

A prisoner to these lies.

I must create,

I must show,

I am not so easily deceived.

 

Now I become crystallized.

Trapped in this shell.

Displaying beauty

While hiding the mire.

 

As the fires rage on,

I descend into the flames.

What I stood for has now died,

My eyes close and I tire.

 

The past is everlasting

If I so decide.

But I wish to morph

And denounce my old self.

 

Look at me,

See me now,

The shallow conscience dissolved.

I know now,

I do know,

What I am is wrong.

 

My mind sends signals

And I fail to determine:

Are these things correct?

Or am I ending?

 

Give me answers,

Give me closure,

To end my rampaging confusion.

I must create,

I must show,

I am not so easily deceived.

 

Now I become crystallized.

Trapped in this shell.

Displaying beauty

While hiding the mire.

 

Instant destruction hungers now,

Reaching over the skies.

My face darkens and I cry,

My eyes close and I tire.

 

There is

No connection inside.

I fear my mind is lost.

There is

No control inside.

I just don’t want to hurt

Anymore.

 

I have

Little sanity left

As the hourglass tips over.

The sand

Drains my life away.

I just want to know

Who I am.

 

Tortured by gloom,

A spell that was casted

To keep me in unknown.

And suffer in indefinite.

 

In my mind,

My last thought,

Blames me once again.

It is I,

Always I,

Who has been at fault.

 

The coming transformation

Must fool them all.

Project the image that

I have grown stronger.

 

I am weak,

I am frail,

This bitterness is reality.

To stop this hell,

I must show,

I can deceive them all.

 

Now I become crystallized.

Trapped in this shell.

Displaying beauty,

While hiding the mire.

 

When nightfall appears,

I faint to quiet the anger.

The shadows comfort me,

My eyes close and I tire.

 

Now I am crystallized.

Invincible and free.

Trapped in a shell,

But ignorant of the mire.

 

No matter what I accomplish,

I cannot please the demons.

The reflection despises me,

It’s time to expire.

 

Let the rumors persist.

Let the riddles persist.

Let the betrayal persist.

Let the torment persist.

 

Make it continue,

Make it everlasting.

Trapped in a shell

Of my vanity.

The End

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