Raising the White FlagMature

Limitless days, countless hours

All spent alone, thinking:

Who will I become?

 

Time goes by, I miss out.

So much lost, nothing gained.

Can I live this way?

 

It started out:

I was king,

Ruling in my world,

Untouchable and innocent.

Shaped perfect

And never saddened.

Always a smile

And a positive mood.

 

Then I was pulled

From my throne.

Restoration began

To reinstate the darkness.

In a foreign land,

Alone and confused,

Still smiling,

Still positive.

 

Moving up

Unsteady ladder.

Pushed around,

Taunted by life.

Recovering once,

Only for a year,

Just to fall,

Back in the rut.

 

Blackened name,

Tarnished record,

Still-beating heart

Wanting to break.

 

And so it goes away,

The happiness of the youth,

To be locked away

And never seen again.

 

Lynch my name,

Burn my soul,

Tear up my heart.

I can’t resist, I don’t resist.

 

Flying free,

Eager to try.

Seemed simple,

But nobody cared.

Slew of words,

Bucket of tears,

Still full,

But nobody cared.

 

Early on,

Sentenced to fail.

Betrayed so much,

Stabbed in the back.

Going backwards.

Getting crazy.

No smile,

No smile.

 

Last year,

Wish it died.

Yet I know,

It existed.

I swear to change,

Swear I will.

It’ll be fine.

I’ll be fine.

 

Darkened face,

Angry stare,

Patch it up,

I can’t patch it.

 

And so it goes away,

The happiness of the youth,

To be locked away

And never seen again.

 

Lynch my name,

Burn my soul,

Tear up my heart.

I can’t resist, I don’t resist.

 

I’ve learned how to cope.

I know how to roll with it.

I feel the dark inside,

I have to cover it up.

 

I’ve learned how to hide.

I’ve learned how to conceal it.

I feel the pain inside,

I have to cover it up.

 

This year,

Shed a tear.

I feel it coming,

I put it away.

Feel like shying,

And falling away.

I’ll smile,

But it’s fake.

 

I swear

Positivity.

They won’t know,

I’ll hide it.

Just smile,

Just smile,

Fuck it all,

Just smile.

 

And so it goes away,

The happiness of the youth,

To be locked away

And never seen again.

 

Lynch my name,

Burn my soul,

Tear up my heart.

I can’t resist, I don’t resist.

 

Now it’s gone away,

I know it’s far away.

It will take years in this life

To bring it back.

 

Lynch my name,

Burn my soul,

Rip my heart

Out.

 

Limitless days, countless hours.

Oh, how I’ve wasted it all.

The End

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