Broken And HollowMature

Again, I see myself

In the mirror.

Seems I get older

By every passing day.

These ages fly on by,

These problems cloud my sky.

A blanket of darkness

Is all that’s left

For me.

 

Inside it’s so cold.

I find it hard to breath.

Suffocating in its embrace.

But outside is so cruel.

It drains your life

Till you got nothing left.

 

The golden castle

Fell apart brick-by-brick.

Eroded in my sadness.

Without it I’m alone.

I have no protection,

Brooding in my lonely state.

 

Oh, you built me up,

And tore me down.

The fuck is your problem?

I gave you all my life

To bring you to the light.

 

I fall apart inside,

My heart falls out,

I am hollow again.

 

You build my heart,

Then tear me down,

You heartless bitch…

I’m hollow again.

 

I wish I could change.

Take the mirror,

Shatter it into pieces.

Somehow it won’t break.

I stare back at myself.

The monster stares back.

 

This is of your design.

The anger boiling,

Only cause of your heart.

It never was there.

Just a shell,

An empty skeleton.

 

Again I notice

How old I am.

I touch my face,

Can’t believe that’s me.

Transformed by rage,

I’ve taken the stage.

Taking a final bow,

And saying my farewells,

To who I used to be…

 

Oh, you built me up,

And destroyed my soul.

The hell is your issue?

I sacrificed myself.

To try and save you.

 

I fall apart inside,

My heart falls out,

I am hollow again.

 

You build my heart,

Then tear me down,

You heartless bitch…

I’m hollow again.

 

Hollow again,

A familiar feeling.

I know how it is

To be empty inside.

 

Every day,

This familiar feeling.

It’s common for me

To be empty inside.

 

But did it have to go this way?

Twice, we failed.

Two cursed souls trying to dance.

But we soon crumbled.

It wasn’t built to last.

So this is love?

 

I’m better off alone.

I don’t care

On my little island.

I’ve tried a dozen times,

Failed a dozen more.

So I can be alone…

 

Again I feel

Inside my body,

There’s something missing,

There always has been.

No love to give,

No good life to live.

Who wants a man

Who always been this…

Empty inside.

 

Inside it’s so fucking cold,

I can no longer breathe.

Suffocating willingly this time.

Outside, I know it’s cruel.

But my life is gone,

Nothing left to drain.

 

Oh, you built me up,

And smashed me apart.

The fuck is your problem?

Everything wasn’t right.

We’re not okay.

 

I fall apart inside,

My heart falls out,

I am hollow again.

 

You build my heart,

Then tear me down,

You heartless bitch…

I’m hollow again.

 

Empty inside.

Always have been

Empty inside.

Day after day, living the lie that

I have a heart.

But deep down I know.

Empty inside.

Always have been.

 

Always will be

A hollowed man.

Nothing but a shell

Broken and beaten.

 

I look in the mirror again

Out of twisted curiosity.

What do I see,

But a skeleton

Of my former self.

The End

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