Could I?Mature

Am I capable of doing everything?

Finishing my schoolwork at the same time
That I have to work on three projects. At the same time
That I have 4 friends on suicide watch. At the same time
That I have a few friends getting wasted. At the same time
That I have a couple friends getting high. At the same time
That I have to moderate my mother's drinking. At the same time
That I have to babysit my little brother for my mother. At the same time
That I have to defend myself from my verbally abusive father.

At the same time that I have to be
Just a normal teenage girl.
Just another one who falls helplessly in love.
Just another one who can be Miss America.
Just another one who will do what they are told. 

But I don't want to be.

I want to fill the abyss.
Fill the gaps in my life.
Make things okay for once.

But could I even do that?
Could I even cause an effect great enough to leave a dent?
Am I even worth anyone's time? 

The End

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