I've tried to write it in a different style. Please feed back.
Feel free to add your own only if's.
If we knew how to act
In different situations,
I would've been better.
I would know what to do.
I don't think I'd have this crack,
on my heart, and these inclinations,
That I'm deemed a scarlet letter.
If only I knew.
If only I could block the attack,
Tired of living to their expectations,
I can't do better.
I think it's time I flew.