You stood up and did up your pants
And then all I saw was your back
Dread crept down my back and made my sweat cold
I was just like the rest
The dark part of me quips at least you got to rattle his bed posts before you became a notch
I hate that part of me,drives me straight into another heart of darkness.
Your blood coagulates and you need another’s hands to keep the blood flowing and your heart beating
I could breathe life into you
Would it give you a will to live right?
My dress feels like a burlap sack
All you do is stare at me with my shoes in my hands
Then you stick a bottle of water into the toe of my shoes
I look down at it in disgust
Knowing it’s lukewarm and will most likely turn my stomach
While I’m distracted you sneak in for a kiss
I kiss you because that’s what I do
That’s who I am
And I’m sadden to know I feel empathy for you.
You mutter the acceptable good byes
So you got my number and I yours…
You won’t call me in your hours of need
And I will be left stuffing it all down
Pretending all I need is the company of friends, and a libation every now and then
As I left your house I shook that water bottle until the cap burst free.
I didn’t watch the plastic concave or the water explode taking on the properties of fire
I walked quietly on even as my limbs shook.
I know every word you’d say if you ever saw me like this
And I don’t want to hear them so I briskly walk ahead
You may have seen it all but you haven’t seen it all with me
The emotions that take shape on my face…
The endless surprise that is life…
So I threw myself into the fray, so I threw myself into the fray…