Can they all see through my disguise?
That the smile I wear is just a lie
That although on the outside I look fine
Inside I just want to die
When will I wake from this nightmare?
The nightmare of my life
The pain that builds inside me
Its simple release by a knife
Pouring down my arms and cheeks
Relief mixes with regret
A madness that eats at me from within
A madness that won't let me forget
The way I choose to deal with this
The way I'm starting to crave
That's shunned me from my closest friends
Just because it's my life they wanted to save
The bunch of bloody hypocrites
They've all tried something too
But now it's come to me
I'm the one in the wrong, not you
The chaos that's burning inside me
Is ebbing away my soul
A darkness where my heart used to be
A darkness as black as coal
But if only there was a light
To fill this growing ache
Maybe all this pain and hatred
Would be easier to take
Does anyone even notice?
Or do they not even care...
Where do I go from here?
From this dead end of despair.