NumbMature

Back when I was crying all the time, my doctor told me I was depressed. and one night i was crying and someone yelled at me for it. Ever since then i am numb to everything forcing myself not to cry. People still think I'm depressed. But am I? I mean I'm not crying. Maybe Im better. I don't know anymore

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When you’re so sad

To sad to cry

But you’re so mad

You want to die

 

You have no motivation

Not to work, talk, draw, and eat

I’m so tired

But I can’t sleep

 

I try but I’m too sad

The nightmares

Tossing and turning

Afraid to sleep

 

I feel like a zombie in my own body

I feel broken, hurt, destroyed, ruined

And everything in between

 

But I’m numb to it all

Not expressing any emotions

Just blank in my mind

 

They said I was depressed

But maybe I’m better

I’m not crying anymore  

 

Or is it because

 

When I was sad it was wrong

So I became numb to it all

All because she said I was crying for too long

 

Not sure what’s better

Crying, or holding it all inside

 

Just not sure anymore all I know

I’m at my breaking point

I can’t take much more

 

All because of a man.

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