Not Worth the Truth - Written During My Sister's Eating Disorder

The title basically says it all.

Not Worth the Truth

I try to pretend
Not to know
Everything I know about you
I try not to see
All the things
I'm seeing you do
I try to act
Like I don't
Even conceive
What you're doing
So I try
Looking so naive

But the horrible truth is
This war isn't over yet
In your soul
In your soul

And I can see
All the things
You don't want me
To ever notice
And I
I can tell a battle's waged
And I can do nothing
Oh, nothing
Nothing for you

I try to find
Find something that
Will make you think I believe what you say
I try to look
Try to look somewhere else
When you slip food back from your plate
I try to make
Try to make it seem
I don't notice your thinning waist
I try to smile
Try to smile
Even when it's clear you're losing weight

But the awful truth is
This war isn't over yet
Could it be
You're convinced you're not even sinning

And I can see
All the things
You don't want me
To ever notice
And I
I can tell a battle's waged
And I can do nothing
Oh, nothing
Nothing for you

You claim you're overweight
You claim you're gonna be okay
You say you're just so fine
You wave away these concerns of mine
And what's even worse
Even worse than anorexia
Is knowing you're lying
Because I'm not worth the truth!!!
Not worth the truth!!!

And I can see
All the things
You don't want me
To ever notice
And I
I can tell a battle's waged
And I can do nothing
Oh, nothing
Nothing for you

Not worth the truth
Am I not worth the truth
All this lying tells me
I'm not worth the truth

The End

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