Not Alone

Not Alone (17/6/2012)

Pent up
Anger
Frustration
Withdraw
Telling myself
It must all
Be my fault

Crying
Hurting
Suppressing
The pain

Hoping
Against hope
I'll be fine
One day

Inside
Far
Beyond your view
Hiding
Everything I ever knew

The cracks appear
Slowly
So slowly
The tears are falling
Is fate calling?

But I dry my eyes
Hide under my guise
Please don't let them
see through my own lies

I'm okay
It's the answer
I'll always say
Even as my shell
Continues to break
Even as I question
Everything

The past
The point
The reasons why
I should keep
Trying to fight

Yelling no
I won't let go
An endless struggle
I'm growing bitter
When and why
Did life lose it's glitter?

One moment
Everything's fine
Then suddenly
It's all crashing down

I don't understand
Don't bother
To question anymore
Just try to get
A little more sleep

Just try to shut
The whole world out
I know it can't
Ease my doubts

Another person
Standing there
Just talk and smile
Don't let them see
My incessant
Want to flee

But somethings wrong
I can sense
Its barely hidden
Beneath they're seams

Starling realisation dawns
Maybe
I'm not alone