Nobody

Rap mixed with song. I recorded it at one point, but lost it. You can take any rhythm you wish.

Don’t know the words to make you proud

I just hate the fact that the silence is so loud

Never thought that you’d actually leave

Never grasped the concept it wasn’t momma you really see

Admittedly, I might’ve known it all along

That you’d go and never return

To leave us in that hell hole, nowhere to turn, left us to burn, no sign of concern

But, of course, you did, and now mom’s on the pill

Johnny’s paying bills, and I’m here, lying still

In my bed, sad and alone, razor ready to meet the bone

Hell, if it weren’t for mom, I’d be dead right now

But what do you care?

You walked out on us, now I’m wondering how

Someone could be as heartless as that

Just pack up and go, not ever coming back

 

There was never going to be anybody there for me

My heart’s burned out and I can't see

Life’s useless, pointless, no matter trying

When in the end, we’ll all end up dying

Pray for me not, there’s no shame in sin

When Gods nowhere around it seems, and you just can't win

 

Momma’s crazy, drugged, insane

All attempts to stop her mundane

Johnny’s strugglin' and I can't help

And there’s a hole in my heart from when you left

Just a dark void down inside of me

It’s opening up and tearing me apart

From the inside out and a straight line on the chart

I come back and find pills by his head

Lying down and still and pallid

Now, I realize that Johnny’s dead

 

Well, in the end you come home

And we’re yelling, and screaming and I’m thinkin' I’m dreamin'

And Johnny’s in the living room dead, I’m upset

Momma’s in bed, and you bout to get hit

With my fist and then a kick

And I’m screaming, “You’re sick!”

“I hate you, never wanna see ya face again!

How could you leave

Your daughter, your son, your wife

Your whole entire life?”

Then momma comes down and sees you hanging ‘round

She snaps and yells and then everything’s sound

Momma falls to the floor, her breathing cut short

 

And there I am, at her funeral, thinkin' of what to say

My turn comes and I’m still strugglin', so I wing it and then I end up tumblin'

She’ll never come back and I got no one anymore

Daddy left once she died, just walked right out the door

And I cried and cried, and cried some more

 

There was never going to be anybody there for me

My heart’s burned out and I can't see

Life’s useless, pointless, no matter tryin'

When in the end, we’ll all end up dyin'

Pray for me not, there’s no shame in sin

When God's nowhere around it seems, and you just can't win

 

So here I am, alone in my house

Staring around at the chaos you aroused

My entire family dead and you’re long gone

So I’ve nowhere to go and I say, “I’m done.”

So I grab that razor and say, “It’s all over you won.”

I tried to tell you, dad, but you wouldn’t listen

So you return again and find me missin'

Hopefully, you’ll listen now that I’m dead

Cos', maybe now, my words will be better said

The End

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