Who am I Supposed to Be?

I wake up in the cold morning sun
each fragment of a memory
finds me in my vulnerable state
Stephanie was so beautiful
she took the pain away
But... it didn’t feel right

I thought of Heather
and my heart was bruised with sorrow
I still want her, for better or for worse
despite Stephanie who only wants the best for me
it’s not right... it can’t be this way
Stephanie deserves better than me

Who am I supposed to be?
I have become who I despise
I have become a victim to my lies
Who am I supposed to be?
She was just a friend
until the very end...

I don’t know what to say
so I will pretend to still be asleep
I shouldn’t be having these thoughts
because I am stronger than this
Heather is the past
Stephanie is the future
or at least she should be...

Who am I supposed to be?
I have become who I despise
I have become a victim to my lies
Who am I supposed to be?
She was just a friend
until the very end...

The End

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