Another sad song for my bleeding heart
And with my hands around your neck I will squeeze one last note
A wheeze of emotion hisses out
I feel the air pass through my skin cells
Goosebumps become an emotional reaction
Before you collapse to the ground
I finally got what I was seeking from you
This time I can walk out of your shadow
You have no heart!
You demand evidence of my emotions
Unnecessary by-products of our love making
Closeness a frightening concept for you
I can`t guess why
Your words sharp and to the point
I can only guess that the feelings behind these words are much more serrated.
If anyone needs protection it was me
I didn`t want your warning
I didn`t heed my own
But you could have eased me into this mess
Why did you consent to love me?
Especially when your speciality is apathy…
Somehow I mistook that indifference for acceptance
But then you laughed…
If I’m a punch line than…
You’re a neon man and your light just burnt out…
I don’t love you anymore
I stopped missing you when you left facelessly
You left me standing…gripping the rain drops
Lost in that same old cold breeze
Doesn’t linger in the shoulders
I felt it everywhere
Worest of all you never spoke of longing
I want to see your eyes shift
A beautiful soiled diamond
You never sang about what existed in the space between us.
You never wrote about what truly strikes.
Love too much of a syrupy emotion for you
But I have found the hairs at the back of my neck stand on end,
My sweat runs cold as adrenaline departs,
When love is spoken as starkly as black ink on white paper!
I always had to get right up in your face
Force you to emote,
Cling to what holds you together
And break down your reason
Leave your common sense in tatters
I leave you broken…and myself rotten.