I feel as though I am a porcupine...
with twenty trillion
Sticking out of every single pore of my body
I swear there are five
For every one pore!!!
The fear of the
and ever so rapidly approaching future and the
Of this society
to be some kind of
of trying to fit in and brake out of my shell,
To leave the old horrors of my past behind and move on with my life....
Have all driven me to the place in my mind and psyche that I have never even
That I never wanted to know existed
Have left me with no other choice but to make a decision that I cannot make on my own, yet one that I cannot call upon the Lord above for His
Undoubtedly bias opinion....
like teh syringe used in heroin addicts next high have left me stranded between the quick an' easy road, or the long and hard road filled with canyon sized crators and
The clear, quick, and easy road ends immediately but I cannot bring myself to play
I am both too weak and strong willed, yet I am unsure if I have enough strength or a powerful enough appreciation for this life anymore to take the road on the right. No one around me can
Understand what this is like to ahve to admit that the left ahs won...
I can't take these
Anymore so here I go
July 19, 2010