I was born without a family.
I moved through life searching.
Craving parents, brothers, sisters, lovers
who wouldn't abandon me as I turned ugly
who would be bound to me by blood
who would be proud of my accomplishments
who would stop me from doing stupid things
who would love me
even after realizing I am so far from perfect.
You found me
and you loved me,
like I never thought a human could.
Your mother became my mother,
your father became my father,
and we built a haven together,
my own home in this place
I felt so lost for so long
but finally I belonged
and I felt so free, so beautiful, so lovely.
But then, we were only a family
when I was good,
and as I broke and made mistakes,
I lost all my love and was replaced.
And now I stand, outside, so stupid in my shame
to ever think I deserved to be treated the same.
I wish it could have been me
to share your eternity,
but I'm just a magazine you picked up off the floor
in a waiting room,
and was left behind so soon.