I’m always waiting for something
A text message, sometimes both
When you’re waiting you don’t call it anticipation
They call this sensation restlessness
My heart beats in time with my feet
And suddenly my heart is racing ahead
The impact of it could crack my ribs
Oh there’s nothing worse than a bleeding heart!
And my heart keeps beating
Can’t you hear that thunder?
I can feel the strike and the aftermath
I can’t fix it and I certainly can’t take it all in
Pounded with another beat of thunder and another
And yet another…
I get up abruptly
I want to run even if it’s in circles
I want rip at my clothes and writhe on the floor
I want to do something!
But I stand here looking through these blank windows
I walk stiff legged on
All I see is monotony
Even the clouds move the like soldiers in a line
God damn you!
Time ticks away
I can’t hear it but I feel it’s weighed hand
Touch me before it’s too late
You can pull at my hair
Force me to see only you
It’s what I want anyway
I want to feel you against me
I don’t want to stare at words
Or read between the lines
I want a manifestation!