The reason I always say "love isn't real" is because the one time I felt love that made me feel like I was on drugs, made me feel my heart beat out of my chest, and made me want a marriage and children, was with him.
I haven't ever felt more in love.
Others were failed attempts to forget.
But the love I felt for him never made me so happy but it also made me want to end everything.
It ripped my heart out and took my happiness.
If that's what love is and what love can do.
I don't want love in my life.
Because love should supposedly make me feel pure happiness not soul crushing weakness.
That's why I say love isn't real.