When I say I love you
Do u understand what that means?
That I wish I was the soap
That gets spread all over your body
And gets you clean.
That I wish I was your clothes
Because there might be 20 minutes a day
That they don't get to be close.
That I wish I was your pillow
So that every night
I could caress your beautiful face.
That I wish I was your shoes
So that every morning
You would put me on
And know that me,
at least for that day,
You will not lose.
That I wish I was the makeup
You think you so desperately need,
Because you wear that stuff
From the time you wake up
Until after you eat
That I wish I was your jewelry
So that I could make you
Love yourself a little more
Even without the makeup
And maybe make u see parts of your body that you don't ever see
Like your collarbones
Or that little gap between your toes
Or that little scar on your left knee
I wish I was that table you sit at every day
Because then maybe we could get some alone time
I wish I was the warm bed
That you yearn to get back into all morning
But instead I'm me
And I should give you my warning
I break too easy
Because I've been shattered before.
I sleep too much
Because it gets me away from stuff
Like the memories that force their way back
Out of the boxes in the back of my head
Or the questions
That ask"Does she really love you? Could she really love you? Are you really enough?"
Because baby I've never been enough
Commitment scares me
I need a way out
And if I can't find one I will cry and I'll shout
And then I'll beg you not to leave
I know it's unfair but baby I get scared
And I don't trust as easy
As I lust
And I lust a lot
Because when I'm in love
I need to be as close to you
As your hand and your glove
Some call that clingy
Some call that annoying
And I will annoy you
Because I love you
And I show my love for you
By being there when you need me and when you don't.