Ofcousre I think of him often.
he never leaves my mind;
my dreams are disturbed by the thought of his kiss,
my thoughts are interupted by the image of him knocking on my door and sweeping me off my feet.
but I cant push away one fact,
the fact that could be changed,
the fact that if I pointed out I would never live it down,
The fact that im suposed to over look,
because I do love him!
I physically yurn for him, I want to fall asleep on his chest and listen to his beating heart on the drum of my ear.
I want to be with him,
just not his body,
His person inside is my perfect soul mate!
I WANT HIM!
but not his body....
how can my thin lean body curve with his round shape.
how can I even comprehend this?!
OFCOUSRE! I've tried!
my brain wont let me!
it wont work!
I love you
Im just not in love with you!
I want YOU
just not you....
and I wish we could be together...
but the fact of the matter just wont go away!
and I cant ask you to change, it would kill me...