i couldn't.

i couldn't.

i couldn't save you, not for one moment
not one moment
i couldn't be your savior, not for one moment
not at all

i lie here. gasping for breath. wishing for death.
i have done this.
i let you steal my life force and leave me
i couldn't save you.

i couldn't move your mountains, no
not even one
i couldn't chase away the demons inside you
much less those inside me

i want to die. i want to curl up and die.
let me die.
taking care of you and not myself has killed me
it's torn me apart

i watch the little pieces of my life float away
in the wind
i couldn't save you. i was only kidding myself.
i couldn't

i couldn't
i couldn't
i couldn't
i couldn't

leave me alone with the shattered shards of heart... 

The End

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