Like Mother Like DaughterMature

A spoken word poem (more than a little angsty) about my relationship with my mother.
Trigger warnings: abuse, self harm, suicide.

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"Stupid fucking bitch."
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"You're a worthless kid."
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"No one else could ever love you, little shit!"
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"You don't love me; I should slit my wrists."

And yet you acted surprised,
When, from the age of five
You gave me the idea
That for me to be alive
Was the worst punishment God could have devised
For the sins of past lives
(It had to be past,
You've been a saint this time
When you hit us it was totally justified).

I learned to speak in torrents to drown out the words
That trickled from the tap when the room was unoccupied:
Before I could even write cursive,
I slipped the words "I hate myself"
On the floor at your side:
You said it was the bullies,
I agreed; I lied.

When in tenth grade I caught myself
Sneaking upstairs with a knife
I wanted to plunge into my thigh,
I remembered the cries:
"No, mommy, no! We love you! We don't want you to die!"
Don't assume that
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My threat was a lie
When you're the one who taught me to want to die.

The End

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