Why Can't I Update More?!?Mature

 

So.

I was going to write something today.

I was.

I swear.

Eighteen days without a page.

A long time.

Sometimes, I wonder something.

I wonder if this was a temporary thing.

A fad.

Something I grew out of. 

 

I started in March.

It's now July.

How many pages were posted in May?

One almost every day. 

Two, even, sometimes.

Now?

One every two weeks. 

Maybe.

I tell myself I'm busy.

Am I really?

Plenty of time for Reddit and Youtube.

Writer's block?

D&D still going strong.

Lack of interest?

TOKA's the hypest thing I've done.

Am I losing steam?

I still write in my journals often.

 

So.

Have I grown out of it?

Was it just another obsession?

Well.

I picked up my phone.

I started typing.

16,000 characters in.

Page freezes.

Auto-refresh.

Everything destroyed.

"Fuck that shit!

"I'm not writing today!

"Peace!"

 

The next week. 

I picked up my phone.

I started typing.

16,000 characters in.

Pages freezes.

Auto-refresh.

Everything destroyed.

"Fuck that shit!

"I'm not writing today!

"Peace!"

 

The next week. 

I picked up my phone.

I started typing.

16,000 characters in.

Pages freezes.

Auto-refresh.

Everything destroyed.

"Fuck that shit!

"I'm not writing today!

"Peace!"

 

The next week. 

I picked up my phone.

I started typing.

16,000 characters in.

Pages freezes.

Auto-refresh.

Everything destroyed.

"Fuck that shit!

"I'm not writing today!

"Peace!"

 

And so the cycle rages on. 

Literally.

 

This is why I can't.

 

 

The End

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