Today I Am

Today is just one of those days.
When I wake up wtith the pain.
Wake up with tears in my eyes, but swallow them down again.
When the pressure I already feel to be happy.
Is more than my mind can take.

Today is just one of those days.
When I honestly don't know if I can make it.
Broken open, spilling open.
I see myself in the mirror. 
I see the person I hate creeping back into me. 

Today is just one of those days.
When I won't be able to keep smiling till the night.
When people might ask if I'm ok.
But I'll swallow the pain and say I'm fine.  
Guilt is a cruel master.

Today is just one of those days.
When I'm stumbling through the day.
When I stifle a cry.
Then feel the rage of guilt.
When I want to tear open my own skin. 

Today is just one of those days.
When I need to just make it through the day.
When I lay in bed tonight, I'll close my eyes.
I'll thank God for comforting me through the day.
Today, I just am. 


 

 

The End

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