cc and mc
you know who you are
please, if you find this,
this is the only thing in my life helping me to hold on
and you cannot cut that string
we all know i wouldn't survive it
the poetry that curls your names in quiet dissatisfaction
and whispers precious secrets about the ways we clash in a delicate dance
fragile relationships i am so scared to break in spider-web-thin cracks
cc, you are treasured
i know you think you're brash and scraping
like sandpaper gritting against your own senses
but you're sweet and funny
and talking to you makes me smile
something that rarely occurs these days
you are the only one who's ever really had enough patience
to stick with me even as i changed and evolved
i have something i'll only say once
wound tight in the cradle of my ribs:
you were the only person who ever loved me the way i needed to be loved.
and i know you're worried
i know i'm getting just a little bit better
so please just keep going with me
you believe i can make it
and you make me want to be better
something i haven't felt in absolute ages
you've seen this before.
the thin slope of mental illness
rapidly becoming more and more vertical
straight up like the sun
and i need you to have faith in me.
you're my sister
and i know we've been drifting apart
i know you're back
if only a little bit
and as much as i hate it
you need to trust me on this.
please don't tell,
mc or cc,
i ask for so little in blind honesty
but this is the one thing i will hold you to.