I watch you walk.
I could call out, no, stop,
and you would hear me and spin on your heel
with a smile that is only half real–
but I watch you walk.
Forget the plans we had for dinner,
forget the evening of us together,
I don't mind.
In time, you will have time for me,
and when time is gone, what a pity,
but the sadness that sinks in me
does not invoke tears.
There is a diamond sparkling in this lump of coal
I must swallow.
I watch you walk,
your shoulders brushing his,
and I know you're ecstatic he's the one you're with.
I'm just a friend.
I return alone to my room, and imagine.
I burn all night long.