this is going to be my mourning. my beauty from pain. I won't lose my faith through this. I refuse to.
It's a tragedy they say.
A horrible mistake.
But really it's not.
It's quite easy to find someone to place a blame.
So easy to blame yourself.
Its tearing me up, going through the skin straight to the bone.
I just want to rip my heart out, give it up.
The tears won't stop coming.
I don't have enough mental energy to do anything but sit around.
Wasting my life away.
It's a tragedy to lose someone to suicide.
A horrible shame.
How do you even go on?
Will my faith survive through this battle?