It’s your birthday again
And I still feel like I should be looking for marbles in your cake
It was marble cake after all…
Everything else fades or buries
My memory fogs up
And I just can't seem to clear the haze
I can’t remember what was real and what was a fairy tale
The umbilical cord has long been severed
But I’m still bound to you
You fed me from your breast
Believed in me when no one else did
I tried to take that invisible thread and pull you down from heaven so many god d*** times
I only stopped because my arms got tired
I never quite gave in
What held you back from us?
What stopped your heart from beating?
Beating for all of us who loved you unconditionally
Heaven, what’s heaven?
I tried to find it from an airplane window
But there were no cherubs in those clouds
I think I died that day too…
I look around and wonder why I feel so empty
The world holds no innocence when anything can happen to anyone…
I don't have your eyes
I don't see your face in the mirror
Did you give me your insides?
I wish I knew
It has to end like this
There is so much left unsaid
So much more I could write
And so I have to leave this poem unfin...