I Don't Want This Anymore

I’m certain I know how this is going to end
with the sinking feeling omnipresent
I can’t take the strain, I want to let go
but you strike me with the guilt I never had

Sick in spirit and dead in luck
give more one night to be alone
I don’t want company now but
this solitude will claim me

I don’t want this anymore
I want to live, I want to breathe
I don’t want this anymore
I want to sigh, I want to scream

I’m not perfect by any stretch of the imagination
but I never believed you was either
Which is probably why I wanted to help you
but in the end I let you hurt me

Leave me to my own devices because
what you have done has inflicted so much pain
I just wanted to save you
but I didn’t realise I was the one in troubles

I don’t want this anymore
I want to live, I want to believe
I don’t want this anymore
I want to sigh, I want to scream

This house I used to call a home
colour me in shadows and the numb cold
Then you call me in a deceptive reprieve
and I am back where I started

Do me the honour of leaving me to rest
I can’t gather my thoughts in your glare
What hasn’t killed me has kept me alive
albeit scarred and more afraid of what I will happen to me

The End

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