I dont need help now, but I needed it thenMature

back when music helped keep the dark thoughts at bay,

back when i was happy just to have the notes wash over me,

i felt whole.

but those days were long ago.

i dont need help now but i needed help then,

hiding in the dark when the music faded and i had nothing else to believe in.

i dont need help now, but i needed help then.
now i have found myself in the dark corridors of my mind ,

found a skeleton to the memories that i've locked away,

i dont need help now, but i needed help then,
when i fell apart in alleys woke up in beds that i didnt know then and barely remember now, clothed but unsure,

whether i had been saved or abused in the dark hysteria that i had blacked out into.
i dont need help now, but i needed help then.

back when the world thought i couldnt be saved,

because i so thoroughly craved the texture of metal on my skin.

i was so broken on the inside,

the outside so picture perffect the people i wished i could be hated me,

because they thought i was what they wanted to be.

i didnt need help keeping their hate at bay

because i thrived on it, 

consumed it like water looking to quench this thirst,

oh, no i dont need help now, but oh where were you then?

because i needed you then,

i needed a bit of light.

oh, i dont need help now, but i needed help then.

The End

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