i don't. eat the same
everything these days i consume
comes with the bitter twist of guilt
and a sour taste of disgust at myself
but i don't think-
i don't think i realized?
that between september and now,
i have lost 12 pounds.
137 to 125, i don't know why
but i don't fit my dresses anymore,
loose around the waist and gathering in all the wrong places
tell me i haven't gone wrong
but i know this isn't really all that great
and all i know
is the layer of softness on my belly
that i claw at during the night.